Circle
Today, I am on my way to home, alone
The friend who promised me to play together didn’t come to the park
Next day at school, that friend was walking with a child that I didn’t know
The moment I made eye contact, my eyes got out of sight
The wind felt cold
I felt like I was gone
Today, I am studying after school
The teacher gently taught division, which I could not solve
Today, I am on my way to home, alone
They are playing in the park
My heart fluttered
I got home at full speed
Even if I say “I’m home”, there is no one
There were three canned juices when I opened the refrigerator
Their faces came up into my head than my brothers’ face.
I hid the canned juice in my clothes
I headed for the park
They let me in to the group
They told me “we will play with you again if you bring the juice”
When I got home
Brothers are crying because they don’t have the juice
Mom is angry
I told that I had drunk the entire juice
Today is Christmas Eve
I ate cake and drunken tea with my family
My favorite house
My family is irreplaceable
But
It doesn’t go well once I get out of the house
Why is that?
Because I can’t calculate division?
Because I can’t write Kanji?
Because I’m not good at jump rope?
Because I’m still?
Because I can’t read the atmosphere?
Because I’m short?
The process is more painful than the cause
Tomorrow is Christmas
What will Santa bring to me?
What I really want is not a thing
I want is to make memorable memories with my friend
I want to jump into the circle
I want you to notice me
I want you to tell me about myself
Translated by Ken Hanasaki
